Sunday, January 16, 2005

my dead computer is alive! alive i tell you! alive!

i know people have judged me with neverending critisms and secret inside jokes about what i say in here with their imaginary friends. i shall not hold anything against you because i do that too.

someone said indirectly that i seem to post about things that happen to me and i will diss that person in here. well this is sort of a journal you know.

firstly, i am not sensitive when you tease my better half. its like me teasing your mama. you tease behind me, not in front of me. i love you as a friend but i resent what you said about him.

i have the best of two worlds, friends and lovers. but it is not focking cool when one teases the other party when one havent even met the other party. you can tease but know where you stand. you do not put it up in your profile for the world to see.

its funny when its not you they are teasing.

enjoy this last post. i have decided to officially end this so as to have freedom of speech.


i am moving.
and you will never find me.

xoxoxo
ladollyvita at 4:59 PM

Friday, January 14, 2005

you know something is wrong when meaningless words of a boy who is not even half your age, broke your heart.

it was like a reality check with a slap in the face. thank you small boy for pointing out my sheer stupidity.

i despise him to the very core for blatantly saying such.
and the girl beside me is banging the mouse loudly. what the fuck?

but my anger derives from the fact that i have issues against the subject proposed by the small boy. its not him, its me. what he said reminded me of how i am nothing.

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ladollyvita at 1:44 PM

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

the school library is now my home.

there are times where you make a big deal out of nothing and in the end think it is sort of hilarious.

i am really thinking about what happened yesterday and it is outrageously funny that i reacted so barbaricly towards you. for that i apologize with all my heart.

but your reaction towards my reaction provoked me to withstand the barbaric approach.but i understand that you too were just reacting at that very moment. its okay. we're all alike.

my jacket smells of ciggerettes. wonder if people around me now can smell the stinkiness of it all.

this semester i am a rebel without a cause. skipping lectures and tutorials and dropping cds. i am bound to get at least four warning letters. so buckle up elly, your parents are going to kick your arse.

i have come to realize i have no purpose in life. i am living just because i have to. i do not wish to die though. comtemplating suicide is so passe.

but living without a purpose is just like being dead inside.
i know, i have everything from lovers to friends to a loving family. it is all good enough.

the saddest person in the world is one who has everything but is still sad.

god, help us all.


ladollyvita at 1:34 PM

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

i have been gone for awhile now and will still be missing. my ancient...lets say vintage computer died somewhere last week. i am left with nothing to do but peel toe nails and thumb skins. ok so theres HBO.

things i have done in the real world:
// woke in the wee hours of the morning to travel to SP to watch the boy play soccer in some competition.
// skipped alot of tutorials and lectures.
// met the most disgusting boy in the world, teaching him english actually.
// still short and small, so people please just stop saying "am i taller or are you getting shorter?" everybody says that, not referring to any one person. do stop.
// struggling to save money.
// hating accountings and statistics and girls and cin.....hrmph
// and finally thanks lynox for pampering me on sunday.

i wish its my birthday so i can party like its my birthday, foo.

ladollyvita at 2:08 PM

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

my absence is due to a computer breakdown
happy 2005
ladollyvita at 11:53 AM