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ladollyvita at 5:23 PM
another week of school.
i have finally concluded that i get along better with the boys than the girls in my class.the girls are girlish girls who gets squeazy whenever the word 'sex' comes along.the boys on the other hand are laid back and talk a whole load of shitte.ah now thats my crowd.
so sometimes during breaks i hang out with the boys.and gary who looked like chibai during orientation is actually a funny crapola person.how strange.
my precious boy is having orientation this week and we're going to go out on friday.ooooooo...cant wait to see you beb.
mom:asal bual dgn matair "kau....aku"...kasar kan gitu.
me:dah biasa uh ma, au natural.we're friends too you know.
my mom got worried when she overheard my conversation with the boy.she wants me to communicate with him in a lovey dovey way.hurhurhur.
i will be having menstrual cramps today.i can feel it kicking me now.darn it.urgh.
yesterday during lecture, i got called out to answer a question.the disturbing thing is, of all the whole lecture hall...she remembers only my name.
i need to complicate my name.its too easy.
im off to school now.cheerios.
ladollyvita at 9:35 AM
Licensed to Revolution 4 was great.finally got to see izzadkozad play.dyna turmoil...oooooo...zad kau gengtel guitar lawar uh.you look coo.you're coo.
2mins late was great too.saw my neighbour and his friends who wanted to pick me up to bodysurf.hurhur.stoopid boys.an arsehole skinhead boy was being rather darn disgusting but nevermind about that.i had a great time and lyn almost got crushed bcos one of her cute little black shoes slipped off her feet and she was busy looking for it while the boys were moshing but K.A.COM.MY saved her.and yes, i was accidentally in the bloody mosh.ah dont worry, i may be small but hey i can survive the worse.
my precious boy said im small and i should be protected by my friends who are bigger than me.hurhurhur.come on man.just bcos im small i cant do stuff on my own...hmm...jgn cabar~ hurhurhur
i slept for a short while during lecture.i was really snoozing off and i tried to stay awake but my eyes just cant take it.so i looked for 101 ways to stay awake.i found two that worked.
1 -- talk to strangers around you.
2 -- eat mentos constantly.
now im off to study.yes, elly is going to study.oh shuddup you.
ladollyvita at 4:32 PM
this is a copy-and-paste entry typed by the wo-man him/herself, Nur.
NUR:anyway. THIS ENTRY IS NOT DEDICATED TO ANYONE IN PARTICULAR. ITS IN GENERAL SO DONT TAKE IT THE WRONG WAY. I HAVE TO SPEAK WHAT I FEEL TOO.ITS JUST THAT THE THINGS I SAID ARE BASED ON COMMENTS FROM A HETEROSEXUAL SPECIAL SOMEONE. AND THIS ENTRY IS NOT TO HURT YOU. OR TO BRING YOU DOWN. ALRIGHT. ITS IN GENERAL. FOR ALL THOSE HETEROS WHO MIGHT BE JUST GETTING WAY TOO ANNOYING.
okay firstly nur, how can it be in general when i am obviously the one who said all these shitte to you.no its not in general.no it doesnt hurt me.it just pissed the living fuck out of me AGAIN.i repeat, AGAIN.for all those heteros who might be just getting way to annoying? are you sure? or is it only for me?
NUR:hmm.
someone told me,
im not goth. gay goth. whatever shit.
who says that i am goth in the first place.
my interests and things i like are just similar to things goth people like.
does that mean i must be a goth?
hah.
okay for that part i shall not go against.you are right.i just said it out of the fact that i was just angry and im just spitting everything out at you.
NUR:im just gay gay? hah. yeah tell me about it.
i know i am gay.
and i am proud to be gay.
is it wrong for a homosexual to be interested in mysterious dark gory weird stuffs?
hmm.
no, its just wrong to be gay.tell me im wrong about that?so it is okay to be gay?if it is, lets go tell your parents about it.
NUR:so what if i am gay.
does that make me a useless piece of shit because i am gay.
no, it doesnt.beb kau luper eh? i knew rafiqin was a fucking fagwhore yet i put that aside plus all his other flaws and pursue a relationship with him.i do not fucking discrimate against faggots.only fagwhores such as him and you.
NUR:so theres a rule nowadays huh.
to not go out with faggots.
why? whats the reason?
it brings down ur reputation if people sees you outside with a faggot?
oh my god.
what. faggots are disgusting? what? like as tho i fucking sucked a dick infront of you.
well, like as tho u have not sucked a fucking cock in your life.
disgusting as faggots might seem. heteros are no different.
homosexuals are just not normal.
and even that is a problem to you people. sheesh.
just mind ur own bloody business.
no it doesnt bring down my reputation.i fucking asked you out.dont you even remember that?nur...you are running away from the point of the problem.do you know whats the problem?whats the root of all these fag hating frenzy?that he cheated on me for you and both of you did very well in pretending nothing was happening between both of you fags on a stick.the reason i hate you and him is bcos you both are gay which result to both of you soon enough became interested in each other bcos you boys/fags have been best friends forever.do you get my point nur?
NUR:dont bloody discriminate the other party.
u fear them, yet u still dare to criticise them. thats great. yeah. well. gays are bitches. far far more bitchy. so yea.
thats a warning. hah. WORDS CAN STAB SO DEEP. YES. AND SO FAR MORE PAINFUL THAN ASSFUCKING. HAH.
well well.
okay now lets highlight some words...
discriminate
my dear nur, i do not discriminate.if i do why was i even friends with rafiqin in school when i know well enough that he was just another fag?
get this straight nur.i do not discriminate.i just hate you and him.and you know damn well whats the fucking reason.
fear them
are you sure about that?no wait, i think i will only fear you if you are in drag.dragqueens are scary, without a doubt.
gays are bitches.far far more bitchy.thats a warning
okay lets play a guessing game.who trembled, looked on the floor and just kept quiet the whole fucking time when elly was talking to him? guess who? yes, nur.you did.
words can stab so deep.
oh you got me wrong when i said "it fucking hurts".i was referring to the whole issue of you and him being so in fucking love even when i was together with him.not about the whole entry.thats just yet another issue.
ladollyvita at 8:54 PM
yesterday was yet another awesome day out with the boy.
school was okay.i got a papercut on my hand due to carrying too many books.i struggled on the way home urgh.i was late again~.sorry beb.
i saw nur and his friends at marina square.yes, my head began spinning and my blood boiled like fuck.at first i thought it was rafiqin.but it was nur instead.i dont just do the whole talk but no action routine.when i say that when i see you outside, i will, approach you and i will curse you, trust me on that.
and so i did.cursing him in front of his girlfriends.anger was overpowering.
your height doesnt intimidate me.you trembled and looked down on the ground in silence as if i was a teacher scolding you.
forcing him to say it to my face what he wrote about me in his little blog.all i got from him was silence.
as i talked to him, i began to feel sad.images of the past flashed in my head like short movies.standing there in front of him, the pain i felt before came all over again as if only yesterday i found out rafiqin was cheating on me.
im sorry nur.i think that was enough verbal abuse and hatred from me already.no more.
my oh my...when is your turn qin?
im ready.
ladollyvita at 12:31 PM
tomorrow is the end of my first week in poly.overall it was great.
maybe only for now since theres no projects and assignments to do.i am please with my course.in case some of you want to know exactly what the hell i am doing this whole three years,my course is Business Logistics and Operations/Marketing.
learning new subjects and meeting strange new people all at the same time makes my insides do somersaults.
if you know me and see me walking around aimlessly in poly, do come up to me and say hello.
the first day was a little embarassing though.me and lynox were both buying fruits from the drinkstall.
uncle selling drinks:ah..freshyyy ah..WELCOME TO TP!
me:argh..uncle dont say loudly ar.
lynox:ellyyy...cepat jalan, cepat jalan.
everybody in the canteen looked at us.darn it lah you uncle selling drinks you.too warm a welcome.
i met shazana's boyfriend, shaun.
i saw alot of pretty girls and boys.
i saw amin, the dancer.
i saw people who have blogs.
i am going to meet up with the boy tomorrow.yippie.
and i think i have grown fatter.seriously.i need to stop craving for food.
went shopping with my mom and sister yesterday.
yesterday wasnt a good day besides the shopping.bought tshirts, jeans and a new bag.it was a dreadful day in which i shall not go in detail.
okok..i will soon link the buttons under the lovers list.there are more buttons to be made.i like, i like, i like photoshop.
ladollyvita at 5:40 PM
two days of school had passed me by.i made it through.amazing.
i do kind of like my course.the friends i made are fun.
yeapyeap i am having fun uh (=
i can't update much.i have things to do after school.
yeah...i become a horrid tuition teacher after school.
now im off to do some schoolwork.hurhurhur.
and erm...i saw something that blew me away today.it scares me.im just in a state of undescribable shock.shock.i am bloody friggin shocked.argh.
ladollyvita at 10:46 PM
nur dedicated a whole entry to me.in the process describing how ugly, narrow minded and typical i am.
what the fuck did that lover of mine see in you in the first fucking place.
hah.
no wonder he left you for me.
yes nur.im nothing compared to you.yes nur.you are the world to him.yes nur.i am just a useless, ugly, non-worthy, typical slut.yes nur.he left me for you.yes nur.i am straight.
i tried for awhile to be nice to you even after what happened.i tried.but one day the anger that has been building up burst like a fucking needle poking a mega huge hot air balloon.
maybe if you were there when i cant stop crying every half-an-hour everyday, you will know.maybe if you were there when i had trouble breathing, literally, you will know.maybe if you were there when i cant get out of bed, you will know.
you will know, that the pain that you and him gave me is just too deep.
yes nur.it comes and goes.
you made me twisted like that.
dont get me wrong.i am happy now being with an amazing someone.he is my precious wishing star.i can never be happier than this.
it just comes and goes.yes, sheer hatred.
ladollyvita at 9:15 PM
tomorrow is my first day of school.wish me luck.
there is nothing much to say.
today is a sad sunday.
im breaking out.
fade out again.
I'll be waiting with a gun and a pack of sandwiches
im ready, im ready, im ready.
pls elly, you shall not kill anyone.
ladollyvita at 12:05 PM
the boy is making my wishes come true.you are wonderful.thank you for everything.everything.my wishing star.
overnight at east coast
look at a blanket of stars till late
go to the zoo
watch movies before school starts
get hagen daz
eat at popeyes
hiking at bukit timah
get churros
take pics at photobooths
picnic in a park
our trip to the zoo was great.below are some of the zoo trip pictures.
ladollyvita at 7:26 PM
I.R Baboons.
oh look at that arse.spank that bloody red arse.
oooo...aren't you just simply hairy.rowr.
maybe animals should start wearing underwear.
the boy was so fascinated by the monkeys
long, red stick.
Everyday Animals
yoohoo~ Mr. Kangga!
touching your gorgeous white hair isn't enough.
can i ride you?
yeapyeap.dasar babi hutan.
miss piggy is so fat, she has to drag her darn
saggy boobs on the dirty ground.
got milk?
mr. sunbear having lunch.
a circle of zebras.
ladollyvita at 5:00 PM
woke up late today.two missed calls and the weather is a killer.
im going out with the kid later to get her some books.i need that aircon jacket thing.its just oh so friggin hottttaaaaaaa.
i can't wait to see the boy tomorrow.we are going to the zoo.hurhurhur.seriously, we are.yeapyeap.then we're going to look for thrift stores and shitte.we are also going out on friday, just to spend some time together.
went out with lynox yesterday.went to town to get a haircut.yes, we like to go far, far away to do things.its more fun that way.but in the end she didnt get one due to ridiculous prices.yeah well, beb, its town.we should have known.huahua.
i wasted my money on food last night.
burger ramly.
cempedak goreng.
chicken-wrapped-in-sushi on a stick.
heard burger ramly was banned.but it was there.so i took the risk.i seem fine today.so yeah, go buy burger ramly.it is fine.
i still havent taken my morning shower.still havent eaten anything at all.still dazed and still still.
i cant wait to go to the zoo!woooo!wooo!wooo!whooooppppyyyyy!goldberg!
ladollyvita at 12:49 PM
monday blues.
yeah man.the surname thing was totally stupid uh.
dasar orang melayu.yeapyeap.ouh well.my bad.huahuahua.
yes fizo dearest~ got your point~
i am uncoo like that.yeapyeap.but hey, a ferring girl made the same mistake too, dude.yea.
i woke up late today.although a little upset due to some unexplainable swirlings of thoughts in which i shall let pass me by.
my sister is being such an irritant.argh.go away you annoying person.go away.
i feel so cranky.cranky.cranky.
maybe its bcos im hungry and tired after yesterday.
shitte ouh.i hate being cranky.
hmm...that aussie crocodile hunter's fav word, CRANKY!
im hoping with a little bit of hope that the boy can spend some time with me this week cos im starting school next week.i am strangely missing you ouh.darn it lah.darn you boy.you got me wrapped around your finger.but hey, if you can't make it, its okay.patience, elly.patience.as long as you are still around, im fine.yeapyeap.im fine.
notice how i never mentioned his name or put any pictures of us up here.i have quite alot of pics with him yet its all locked up in some place else.
no, it not bcos i am ashamed of him.i am not.he is awesome.the sweetest precious thing.the boy doesnt quite like the thought of putting our pictures up or putting his face up here.hrmph.huahuahua.he wants to keep it low or something?
hmmm...
are you ashamed of me, boy?
and so i kid.i kid ;)
sigh.
sometimes i can't escape from my room.so excuse me, i'll be just a little late.you will wait for me.
deathcab for cutie - the secret stars
i got you around my wrist.everytime.everywhere.is that okay?
and when our time ends, i'll take it off and put it in the shoebox under my bed.
i feel like i know you for so long.like we have been together for so long.why is that so?its a little odd.
don't stop, boy.don't stop.
ladollyvita at 11:12 AM
today was such a long,long day.
8:15AM
me:erm...excuse me, what are these queues for?
stranger:ouh...line up according to your surname.
so i asked three diff strangers just to make sure.
me:(ouhkay..surname...surname...R....R..wherrre arrre you Rrrr)
five minutes passed
student leader(SL):surname please.
me:R, Ruslan.
SL:its not here...what's your name?
me:Elly.
SL:ouh...then you have to queue at 'A'.
me: (eyes began to twitch.grr.and its not 'A' but 'E'.surname, surname, surname...grr.)
and so elly queued for another friggin five minutes.
8:30AM
wei ting:elly!
me:wei ting! wow.we are meant to be.
8:45AM
me: (ooooo.spot that.and that.darn..minah one.erm.kental.kental.kental.oooo.cute.cute.erm.yeapyeap, time to make new friends)
me:heylo...im elly *smile*
girl:oh erm..hey..(half hearted smile)..im yi shu.
then so i began to talk shitte and all to people around me
soon enough i made friends.exchanged numbers and made stupid remarks just to crack them up and also myself.it was quite boring in the beginning.there were some coo people around.but unfortunately my class was a load of shitte.
i have marked a huge black cross to a boy name Gary. dude, you are such a fucking stuck up chibai and you are not even fucking good looking, so please, do us all a favour and switch classes.
i was the one talking and smiling and making open jokes.seriously, those kids took a darn long time to just friggin talk.we had amazingly boring ice breaker games and we had to design some cloth thing to represent our class.
quiet girls:elly can we do this border here and draw this..and that?
elly:erm?do lah whatever you want to do (wow.they are asking me permissions?oh yes, the power.)
a girl came late.her name is Devin and she is 21.yes.wow.
talked to her and all.she became my dancing partner and soon my cabut buddy.we went off earlier cos it was getting too hot and too uneasy.
the minah girl, fasihah, shes okay in the end.
her other minah friend wore platforms...dude...what the fuck sap?
a girl name grace is also okay.i like her, so bubbly.
5:45pm
devin:elly, now.
me:wokay!
teacher at the door:where are you girls going?
me:ouh..we got work at 7pm.
teacher:*smile* ouh okay!
we walked out and...
teacher:oh girls!...go the other way...it is nearer.
me:erm..whoakay.
then i went off to teach the kid and got home around 8pm.
and ladies and gentlemen...this is another huge mega news...
yes i am serious.woooweeee.
ladollyvita at 8:19 PM
the boy rang me up early in the mornin and disturbed my gorgeous sleep.twice.hrmph.
so tomorrow is the day.yes.its the darn orientation.
introducing myself to a crowd of strangers scrutinizing my every bit.
oh look...shes shorter than me...ooooo....aaaahhhhhh...oooooo
and arent we all looking forward to the ice breaker games.
group one bomb, group one bomb, group one bomb to group four bomb!
group four bomb, group four bomb, group four bomb to group six bomb!
and it goes on and on...and on.
if i didnt participate in the games and be all happy, first impression on the student leaders would be...sombong/charac sak.ah..first impression is so important, its the root of all beginnings.if you blow off your first impression then it will take awhile for other people to get over it.so smile people, smile and be nice.
i am sort of looking forward for tomorrow.it excites me to be where i dont wish to be, to expect unpredictable occurances to bombard me and of course, to meet new people.oh such an adrenaline rush.
six months swooshed passed me in what seems like merely minutes.i will miss doing nothing.i will miss boredom.i will miss late night slumbers.
i shall only see my sweetest precious thing once a week i guess.
ladollyvita at 6:08 PM
.refreshing.
ladollyvita at 5:19 PM
i was away for two days...it was...perfect
just thinking about it, gives me butterflies in my stomach.
the boy:thanks elly.
me:no, thank you...erm...actually eh...thank yas.
hurhurhur.true that.thank you yas for asking us to come along(=
i was hoping to see a shooting star but he got to see one and i didnt.thats unfair.darn it ar.but nevertheless, we had a great time.we took pictures with my hp.my digi cam was being such a friggin whore.i wanted to take pictures of the other couple tapi luperluper.darn it again.
hmm..the yali couple...the liyassa couple...the yalis couple...the illisyas couple...the...erm...the...erm...
hurhurhur.
the official-already question put us in a queer spot.heh.erm...
..anyway~...nur smsed me at night? what the hell? that was odd.
you're fun ar beb.i enjoy spending time with you.you're like my buddy and also plus plus plus.hurhur.
you know how even though it was a whole day and night it seems short when you're spending it with someone great.so i slept late cos i didnt want to miss a thing.i watched him sleep and i think he was dreaming of something cos his mouth was moving as if he was talking.hurhurhur.and so i laughed.hurhurhur.
god sent
ladollyvita at 12:22 PM
mmmHmmm...
i had a great time with the boy on friday.although he was late~ hurhur.
mash potatoes = yumyum
mash potatoes + boy = yummyyumyumyum
The Day After Tomorrow is predictable and so hollywood shitte. not worth $8.50.so dont catch it.
Janet Jackson's new video rocks : all nite (don't stop)
Franz Ferdinand's (take me out) beat is in my head.it's a catchy beat.i loike, i loike.
Robi Draco Rosa's video is coo and the song is sweet : crash push
what did you do?
help me now, im losing me into you.
what did you do?
i took pictures with the boy.erm should i put it up?
Rafie said i look chubbier.hurhur.serious?
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