ive been thinking alot lately. partly bcos i have nothing do. yes i am jobless and lazy, so sue me.
now i feel like i am looking for something but i dont know what it is (just like pai felt that day. hah.)
oh how strange everything is now. im using the word 'now' quite often lately. yes elly, focus on the present. the past was a bitch and the future will be a bitch too. so make sure you dont make a bitch out of the present.
dude, whatever is that suppose to mean?
i dont know, man. i dont know.
relationships.
tell me again why the statement 'love hurts'? if love hurts then why does the world need love sweet love?
if love hurts..then why do we all need it?
in my life i love you more
im thinking of leaving. only thinking. but i'll leave if you're cheating on me and you did something behind my back. standing in the rain wouldnt be enough for that bcos i gave you all my trust. and every ounce of love and positivity to you.
why do i have this weird uncomfortable feeling that you are cheating on me, that you did something. you did something that i dont know and if i knew i would cry. pls tell me my feeling is just sheer insecurity. but it seems so real.
well in case my feeling is all true, you stupid #@$#$#^%&^^T&^$%$%4#6$#65^#%^%$^%^%$^*((*^%&^&^%$$%$%^%&G%$@!@!#@#@#$@$@#$#%^^&*()(())(&(^*&*^&$%$%$#@$&^&*(*(*&(*(&)())@$$^$^%#%%&^&^!!!!!!!
i still heart you mister.
ladollyvita at 11:38 PM
i'll never dance with another
since i saw her standing there
i love the beatles.
"abra ca dabra (pain is gone)....everything will be ok"
i know it will stranger. i know it will. be okay.
because you said so.
and because im thinking of leaving.
ladollyvita at 5:24 PM
//the beatles - till there was you
There were bells on a hill
But I never heard them ringing
No, I never heard them at all
Till there was you
There were birds in the sky
But I never saw them winging
No, I never saw them at all
Till there was you
Then there was music and wonderful roses
They tell me in sweet fragrant meadows
Of dawn and dew
There was love all around
But I never heard it singing
No, I never heard it at all
Till there was you
Then there was music and wonderful roses
They tell me in sweet fragrant meadows
Of dawn and dew
There was love all around
But I never heard it singing
No, I never heard it at all
Till there was you
Till there was you
ladollyvita at 2:47 PM
Selamat tinggal sayang
Bila umur ku panjang
Kelak ku 'kan datang
'Tuk buktikan satu balas 'kan kau jelang
Jangan menangis sayang
Ku ingin kau rasakan pahitnya terbuang
Sia-sia, memang kau pantas dapatkan
if you are feeling messed up, depressed, all negative etc. the only way you can ease your mind is either to kill yourself
or
start praying.
ladollyvita at 2:35 PM
sunday bloody sunday.
ladollyvita at 7:39 PM
i dont know why i try so hard to please you.
and you better not be cheating on me.
ladollyvita at 7:31 PM
i am feeling angry. happy. upset. violent.
im going out of my head trying to breathe.
will you hold my hand for awhile please?
and then push me off the cliff.
ladollyvita at 7:21 PM
erm.
ladollyvita at 6:47 PM
i like bunnies. do you?
ladollyvita at 2:08 PM
i have been missing you so are all your eyelashes gone now?
hah.what do you care when the other men are far, far better.
ladollyvita at 12:50 AM
will be back soon.
ladollyvita at 11:18 PM
//Belle and Sebastian - i dont love anyone
I don't love anyone
You're not listening
You're playing with something
You're playing with yourself
I don't love anyone
You're not listening even now
You're playing with someone
You're playing with someone else
And if there's one thing that I learned when I was a child
It's to take a hiding
I don't love anything
Not even Christmas
Especially not that
I don't love anything
No, I don't love anyone
Maybe my sister
Maybe my baby brother too, yeah
I don't love anyone
But if there's one thing that I learned when I was still a child
It's to take a hiding
Yeah if there's one thing that I learned when I was still at school
It's to be alone
Out in the street today
The kids are playing, having fun
I pass them by I'm not a kid, no
I don't love anyone
I met a man today
He told me something pretty strange
There's always somebody saying something
He said, "The world is as soft as lace."
But I don't love anyone
ladollyvita at 3:04 PM
no alarms and no surprises please. please eh. please. please qin.
ladollyvita at 2:57 PM
pardon me.
i think ive lost my mind.
ladollyvita at 5:59 PM
emotional unstability which lead to being delusional and uncountable sleepless nights. the next stage is bodyache, fever and strangely, vomitting in which the patient is suffering now. the final stage is unfortunately unable for us to assume but its best to assume the worse. this is a result of ignorance and extreme use of the mind.
//Belle and Sebastian - get me away from here im dying
Ooh! Get me away from here I'm dying
Play me a song to set me free
Nobody writes them like they used to
So it may as well be me
Here on my own now after hours
Here on my own now on a bus
Think of it this way
You could either be successful or be us
With our winning smiles, and us
With our catchy tunes, and us
Now we're photogenic
You know, we don't stand a chance
Oh, I'll settle down with some old story
About a boy who's just like me
Thought there was love in everything and everyone
You're so naive!
They always reach a sorry ending
They always get it in the end.
Still it was worth it as I turned the pages solemnly, and then
With a winning smile, the boy
With naivety succeeds
At the final moment, I cried
I always cry at endings
Oh, that wasn't what I meant to say at all
From where I'm sitting, rain
Washing against the lonely tenement
Has set my mind to wander
Into the windows of my lovers
They never know unless I write
"This is no declaration, I just thought I'd let you know goodbye"
Said the hero in the story
"It is mightier than swords
I could kill you sure
But I could only make you cry with these words"
ladollyvita at 2:38 PM
another bad day passed me by.
i think im sick. been puking under a tree on the way back home. maybe its bcos of long bus rides. i dont know. and my fucking chest hurts and everything is aching. fuck.
ladollyvita at 7:32 PM
listening to eamon - fuck it. hahah. oh well. you are pathetic like me. and you too. and her too. and him too. and you too.
fuck what i said it dont mean shit now.
ladollyvita at 12:16 PM
''i heart you, thats all that matters.''
i heart you too but its not all that matters. you have provoked me to be in this state. it was paranoia. was.
now im just upset bcos i know its true.
ladollyvita at 11:44 AM
ive been reading old entries in my other journal. entries two years ago and all. i am facing a horrible state right now so i resorted to read very old entries to remind me of the happy days. i will not accept this moment, this present moment now. im taking my mind back to the days when sunflowers grow around my bed. this present moment is too sad, i cant take it anymore.
ladollyvita at 9:15 PM
i wish im just a made up imaginary person in a dream of a seven year old girl.
ladollyvita at 4:52 PM
So i speak to you in riddles
cause my words get in my way.
I smoke the whole thing to my head
And feel it wash away
cause i can't take anymore of this,
I want to come apart,
Or dig myself a little hole
Inside your precious heart
ladollyvita at 4:29 PM
so the results are out.
as expected i didnt get what i want...
fuck the bloody moe. fuck you. fuck you.
i am forced to appeal for a course on monday. so off to NP, early childhood education programme here i come. yes i am going to be a childcare nyonya who scares children with her foul body odour. blah.
everything is wrong at this very moment.
just my luck huh...
quoted from a certain someone "elly, it is a boring course you know...your sister have a flair in sales but you dont..."
you know what. fuck you too. dont fucking compare me with her. she has a flair just because shes working now? there are a million other people who are working just like her so everybody has a flair in sales but me? fuck you man. fuck you.
just stop. stop comparing me to anyone. how can you compare something so different. fuck.
this is sadly immature. 'fuck' words flooding entry after entry. this is getting too immature.
one by one they stab me over and over again. unfortunately they dont even realized it.
ladollyvita at 3:35 PM
ive been reading blog after blog after blog. everybody is upset nowadays. but is there anyone out there who is facing this queer problem i am facing now? it would be really really nice to stumble upon someone like that. my problem is unusual and maybe 1/10 girls face it. but unlikely. i dont know. but i think i found one girl. but shes...errmm...ekshen pack sak...so forget it. so difficult to find someone who is humble nowadays.
i have a date tonight. yeap. a date with a 10 yr old girl.
my finger hurts. the cut is too deep. so i wrapped a plaster around my short finger. it has been four days yet it still does hurt.
i was watching Friday the 13th VI: Jason Lives, last night. hurhurhur.
its funny when the victim runs through the woods and jason just had to walk behind them. jason will always get to kill the victim even though he was just walking. run, little piggy, run!
and policemen never believe teenagers who tell them someone is trying to kill them.
horror movies are not scary nowadays. twisted endings are no longer twisted. its predictable.
i still prefer b-grade chinese horror flicks cos its funny.
i had a dream last night. and a name came up, ''Khai''.
i saw his face. he was wearing a white tshirt. he was big. i think.
my anger has not subside much. so beware. rowr.
ladollyvita at 4:11 PM
I don't think you unworthy
I need a moment to deliberate.
i have blisters on my fingers. how did this happen?
ladollyvita at 3:49 PM
today i watched something about mary.
did the dirty laundry.
tried patheticly to play said sadly.
irritated by my small and short fingers.
peeled toe nail.
going to email a resume.
end.
ladollyvita at 8:14 PM
la la la la la la la...encore milord...la la la la la~
today is top of the most boring day.
ladollyvita at 6:49 PM
this is strangely exciting.
ladollyvita at 6:01 PM
i feel like putting my hand into my mouth and dig my insides out and grab my heart and pull it out and stomp on it over and over and over and over again.
enough said.
ladollyvita at 12:16 AM
the bad thoughts are still lurking inside my head. but its going back to hiding. sometimes i cant help it. so i just tweak and go berserk.
oh well.
hmm...usher can dance so well. he has no looks but he got style and moves that can make you drool like me. his new video - yeah - feat ludacris and lil jo. the beat is addictive.
so today is a mother-daughter day out. going to shop. shop. shop.
i want to get shoes.
and clothes.
and sushi.
ladollyvita at 1:47 PM
man...i overeacted. damn. how come my gut feelings suck.
he got me a nice skirt. lovely. i love it.
sorry ive been such a twat.
you rock better than anyone else.
such a nice surprise.
god i love you baby.
so much.
ladollyvita at 11:28 PM
ever since i met you on a cloudy monday i cant believe how much i love the rain
im angry yesterday and im still angry today. i'll be angry tomorrow too. and the day after tomorrow too.
apologies for the 'FUCK YOU'. it makes me feel better. honest.
ladollyvita at 12:08 AM
i took an IQ test. 120. is that good? its kind of low uh. 120 over what? what is the highest IQ thing cos i never knew.
ladollyvita at 11:42 PM
bad day bad day bad day bad day
bad thoughts bad thoughts bad thoughts bad thoughts
bad people bad people bad people bad people
bad you bad you bad you bad you
bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad
fuck is so overrated.
ladollyvita at 11:25 PM
sometimes people think they understand. but they dont. advices are bullshit.
sometimes i think i understand people. but i actually dont. i give them bullshit advices.
so my point is, nobody in the whole fucking world can understand you if you are just so down right depressed and all fucked up. all you got to do is slap yourself and try to fucking get it over with.
see. i just gave you a bullshit advice.
hurhurhur.
okay. so im a little messy right now. dont give me advices just sit beside me and let me punch you a hundred times.
ladollyvita at 6:27 PM
i did that last night. just for the fun of it. as you can see, i dont have a job.
used soft pastel and lipstick on that.
ladollyvita at 6:02 PM
ladollyvita at 5:58 PM
i had crabs just now.
im so angry.
i ate so many crabs.
and they gave me cuts on my fingers with their claws.
i bled and bled and bled.
and i kept on eating and eating and eating.
when im angry. i eat and eat and eat and engrave all my anger into the food.
delicious food makes me forget about the bad things.
happy thoughts.
happy thoughts.
happy thoughts.
why am i still angry?
ladollyvita at 8:50 PM
this is it.
i cant go on anymore.
ladollyvita at 7:15 PM
today is a bloody sunday.
i spent the day watching crappy urban legends and also...
GO BAD
hurhurhur.
ladollyvita at 6:24 PM
you have changed so much that i dont know if i can call you and tell you i care i would love to bring you down.
ladollyvita at 9:31 PM
rafie was online. its been long. come on home babe.
oh and he introduced: Pete Murray - so beautiful
its a nice song. acoustic. i like.
im reading Amaryllis Night and Day by Robert Hoban.
Hoban sounds like Hogan. i miss hogan. wonder how he is doing.
this book seems rather mythical to me. i love mythical. magical.
ive been thinking. alot. and maybe its time. to end this shenanigan.
can we play pretend and i'll be cleopatra and you'll be that important person who feeds me grapes?
ladollyvita at 8:12 PM
i dreamt of puteri lilin that night.
that scary indonesian beauty. it was a scenery of a forest and she was walking with gaurds around her. all in traditional indonesian clothes. she looked gorgeous and i was there with them. they were walking to a hut in the forest. i dont know who she is but i think that was her. i just woke up and 'puteri lilin' came to my head.
im in the midst of making an ultimate decision right now. and im bent to the left. but im still unsure. so i am going to think this through. but i know the outcome will be as expected. cos he doesnt care.
ladollyvita at 4:42 PM
those are the kids i teach twice a week.
im having an extremely painful stomach ache. seriously.
so i think today i'll just lie on my bed and read a book.
and eat lots of chocolate pudding.oh yeah.
to get chocolate pudding in singapore, i have to go all the way to town. the supermarket at paragon. thats the nearest place that sells chocolate pudding. such a nuisance.
same goes to churros.
popeyes is kind of far too.
my favourite things are all so far.
and the govt retained my ezlink.
see how i suffer?
ladollyvita at 4:08 PM
ladollyvita at 11:54 PM
today was unbelievable friday. i endured a whopping four hours learning abt Cal Water and business stuff. 4hrs. continously without a break. the only break i had was five seconds when the pen of Mr Alvin ran out of ink. i think that was his name...my mind was totally flushed as soon as he started talking and scribbling about point values and money and deals.
his articulation of words was disturbing at that point of time. girl became gerrrrr.
note: if i am looking at you in the eye and my eyebrows twitch, it means im pretending and im dying. not paying attention.
my god. welcome to the adult business world miss elly.
so many things were in my head. things that are not even important became extremely important.
mr alvin: so elly..you see..the 1000pv..is a benefit..yadda yadda goo goo la la la ho ho ho...etc
in my head: hmmm...his spectacles look as if there are no lenses...its distracting..i feel like putting a finger through the rectangular frames...
mr alvin: elly? elly? understand so far?
in my head: pls run out of paper and ink. pls run out of paper and ink. (i began chanting that in my head)
surprisingly...he did ran out of ink. so i had a 5 seconds break.
yeah...thats a brief story abt my friday. but the end was okay.
ladollyvita at 11:27 PM
hmm...my previous entry abt loving rafiqin sounds rather gay uh.
excuse my gayness.
ladollyvita at 6:37 PM
i have a bad habit of changing my address. i dont know why. i will change again soon.hurhurhur.
ladollyvita at 6:15 PM
i think i will be working soon.
woohohohohohohohoho
yeah got an interview at telok ayer street tomorrow. i might get that job bcos...i cant make it the other time cos i was sick? my sister lied. so they called me up again. i hope they are really desperate.
im going to do just some administration stuff i think. whatever. yay.
ladollyvita at 6:06 PM
hmm...i want to fart.
ladollyvita at 5:30 PM
i was watching oprah. she had ''the most romantic man'' thing. wow. there are a number of romantic men...in america that is. men who goes all the way for the woman they love and adore even when they're married. the most romantic man was this certain guy called Brian. okay this is how the story goes...
he met his wife in college. since then they have been in love. they got married and then at 24, his wife found out she has breast cancer. she had to shave her head and go through multiple surgeries and all those while her husband stayed with her everyday and said she looked beautiful and sexy even when shes bald. and he cried looking at his wife on the hospital bed. a man cried. how rare is that.
the whole video was touching. through health and sickness.
oprah rocks.
the other men were romantic too...leaving short love notes everyday even when they're married and living in the same house.
and that made me wonder about the conversation i had with a friend last night.
he asked me why im not selfish about the boy.
thank you sir. its true. im not selfish. bcos i just am. i will let you step all over me if i think you're worth it. i will give you what you want if i think you're worth it. i will go all the way to be with you if i think you're worth it. in return i dont ask for anything. it would be nice for your turn to treat me well but i have no expectations.
i walked all the way to that block near your house almost every night just to sit there with you.
i ran to your house when you were sick and got you panadols. i ran. i did.
i waited for you for an hour and a half bcos you overslept and i dont intend to move until you came.
i got you what you want even though i was saving the money to buy my medicine.
i know of your past and what you did but i just let it pass me by.
i waited for you to finish work at 11pm but in the end you were going to yishun instead and i still talk to you the next day.
i let you do what you want...eyeliner etc.
and then my friend reminded me...''he USED to say i love you to you''
yeah...he used to. and almost everyday i msg him short messages to tell him that i am still in love with him. i just did last night.
oh well, to my dear friend...
i love him. i do. so much that its too mushy and every word and thing i do or write is mostly for him. a day never passed that i did not have him in my head. never. since 8th January 2003. thats a year ago. and im still not bored of being in love with him. im not selfish because i know that it happened between us. that once we were both in love and that what ive been longing for happened.
haha...yeap yeap...mushy nyer elly. but its true. my love for him is whole and sincere.
i will give him the world if it was possible.
ladollyvita at 2:58 PM
{jack johnson - bubble toes}
It's as simple as something that nobody knows that her eyes are as big
as her bubbly toes
on the feet of a queen of the hearts of the cards and her feet are all
covered with tar balls and scars
It's as common as something that nobody knows that her beauty will
follow wherever she goes
up the hill in the back of her house in the would she love me forever,
I know she could
I remember when you and me mmm how we used to be just good friends
Wouldn't give me none
But all I wanted was some
She's got a whole lot of reasons
She cant think of a single one
That can justify leaving
and he got none but he thinks he got so many problems
Man he got, too much time to waste
His dreams are like commercials
But her dreams are picture perfect and
Our dreams are so related though they're often underestimated
It's as simple as something that nobody knows that
Her eyes are as big as her bubbly toes
On the feet of the queen of the hearts of the cards
And her feet are infested with tar balls and
La da da da da da
Well I was eating lunch at the D. L. G.
When this little girl came and she sat next to me
I never seen nobody move the way she did
Well she did and she does and she'll do it again
When you move like a jellyfish
Rhythm don't mean nothing
You go with the flow
You don't stop
Move like a jellyfish
Rhythm is nothing
You go with the flow
You don't stop
It's as common as something that nobody knows it
Her beauty will follow wherever she goes
Up the hill in the back of her house in the wood
She'll love me forever, I know she
If you would only listen
You might just realize what you're missing
You're missing me
If you would only listen
You might just realize what you're missing
You're missing me
It's as simple as something that nobody knows that
Her eyes are as big as her bubbly toes
On the feet of the queen of the hearts of the cards
And her feet are infested with tar balls
ladollyvita at 2:00 PM
my parents are back. yay?
haha. alright i miss them okay fine so...yay.
got us t shirts that says ''g'day'' and ''australia''. haha. charming.
and of cos a roxy shirt.
they bought fruits too. the grapes are sweet. fresh from the trees.
and nougats!!! a huge packet of nougats!!!
and magazines.
her dreams are picture perfect
you know what stinks?
whenever i imagine something perfect to happen to me. in reality, somebody i know will get it instead. it has always been like that. how annoying.
ladollyvita at 12:13 AM
my magic fairy name. go try it, its under my links list
She is a caster of weird dreams
She lives close to crystal caverns and stalagtite grottos
She is only seen when the first leaves fall from the trees
ladollyvita at 5:01 PM
if you notice. my so called writings are all for him.
anyway...enough about that boy...
my rents are coming home today. i miss them so. and i want my souvenirs~ think my mom got for us the new escada perfume...hmm...it smells like pineapple. fruity. but its okay. i still love d & g light blue. everytime i go out i can differenciate that very smell in the crowd and i'll be in search for who is wearing it. it smells really good, it hypnotises me. im serious =|
so im off to the airport by 8pm. popeyes, here i come!
i wish i can sing and play guitar like jack johnson.
ladollyvita at 4:31 PM
im craving for popeyes, chocolate oreo bubble tea and rafiqin.
ladollyvita at 1:02 PM
rafiqin came over again today.
he cooked lunch for me...awww...thank you darling. it was perfect. well..hmm..a little salty..haha..but perfect.
i love you so much much more today than ever.
thats the difficult part.
when you begin to love something so much...there is so much more to lose in the end.
god i dont want to lose you.
ladollyvita at 11:13 PM
my aunt is killing me. fucking hell.
i want to be alone.
stoopid fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
ladollyvita at 8:01 PM
please stay a little longer.
ladollyvita at 7:21 PM
{aterciopelados - el estuche}
No es un mandamiento ser la diva del momento
Para que trabajar por un cuerpo escultural,
A caso deseas sentir en ti todos los ojos,
Y desencadenar silbidos al pasar...
Mira la escencia, no las apariencias
El cuerpo es sólo un estuche y los ojos la ventana,
De nuestra alma aprisionada
Mira la esencia, no las apariencias
Que todo entra por los ojos dicen lo superficiales,
Lo que hay adentro es lo que vale
Siento en el aire, un aroma espiritual mensajeros alados
Intentando aterrizar, si abres el estuche lo que debes encontrar
Es una joya que te deslumbrará (hay pero)
Mira la esencia, no las apariencias
90-60-90, suman docientos cuarenta,
Cifras que no hay que tener en cuenta
Mira la esencia, no las apariencias
No te dejes medir, no te dejes confundir alúsate hazte valer
alúsate hazte valer
i think spanish is a sexy language. sexier than french.
i want diego luna!
i miss rafiqin. bluek.
ladollyvita at 7:16 PM
{smashing pumpkins - perfect}
I know we're just like old friends
we just can't pretend
that lovers make amends
we are reasons so unreal
we can't help but feel that something has been lost
but please you know you're just like me
next time I promise we'll be
perfect
perfect
perfect strangers down the line
lovers out of time
memories unwind
so far I still know who you are
but now I wonder who I was...
angel, you know it's not the end
we'll always be good friends
the letters have been sent on
so please, you always were so free
you'll see, I promise we'll be
perfect
perfect strangers when we meet
strangers on the street
lovers while we sleep
perfect
you know this has to be
we always we're so free
we promised that we'd be
perfect
ladollyvita at 5:02 PM
for a year and a month i have spent at least 2 or 3 hours tossing and turning in bed. sleepless nights.
i miss him every freaking day. and im not exagerating.
scary as he may see it.
sad as i may see it.
we have been together for four months i think. but i doubt we will last even half a year.
oh well.
i love you more today than yesterday but not as much as tomorrow.
{jack johnson - fortunate fool}
shes got it all figured out
she knows what everythings about
and when anybody doubts her or
sing songs without her
shes just so hmmm...
she knows the world is just a stage
and so she'll never misbehave
she give thanks for what they gave her
man they practically made her
into a hmmm...
shes the one that stumbles
when she talks abt
the seven foreign films that
shes checked out
such a fortunate fool
shes just too good to be true
shes such a fortunate fool
shes just so hmmm...
shes got it all figured out
she knows what everythings abt
and when anybody doubts her
or sing songs about her
shes just so hmmm...
but shes the one that stumbles when
she talks abt
so maybe we shouldnt talk abt such a
fortunate fool
shes just too good to be true
shes such a fortunate fool
shes just so hmmm...
ladollyvita at 3:40 PM
dirty dancing rocks. it was freaking hot. hot. hot.
oh and diego luna is my new boyfriend now *slurp*
watched that with no. i had fun =)
i miss rafiqin.
bleargh.
ladollyvita at 10:44 PM
my favourite person came over tonight.
hmmm...god i love you.
thank you.
ladollyvita at 1:53 AM
i saw a guy last night. he looked like diego luna. we stared at each other. he turned his head a few times. and we had that ''do i know you'' look. but it was diff. my first time. love at first sight? nah. more of...you are something.
ladollyvita at 2:26 PM
pls stop it.
ladollyvita at 2:24 PM
i just realized that this will look like shit if ur screen is 800 x 600.
1024 x 768 is a better view.
so i have a movie to watch today.
i miss my mom.
oh well.
i can have her room all to myself now.
ladollyvita at 3:47 PM
so my parents are away now.
strangely alone now.
im missing them.
ladollyvita at 10:29 AM
my mom said im a dirty girl so thats why there is a huge cockroach in my room.
i dont want to go inside my room anymore.
i hate cockroaches.
im hugging a bean bag.
ladollyvita at 8:38 PM
erm...the hearts look like unshaped red patches. yes. it is a heart. <3 <3 <3
ladollyvita at 7:41 PM
jack johson plays good music. go listen.
ladollyvita at 7:32 PM
i ♥ me.
i ♥ you.
i ♥ me.
i ♥ you.
i ♥ me.
i ♥ you.
i ♥ me.
i ♥ you.
i ♥ us.
ladollyvita at 7:05 PM
my neighbour gave me fifty bucks bcos i passed my Os.
my aunties gave me money too.
this is sweet.
ladollyvita at 6:47 PM
im hungry. im going to cook something now.
ladollyvita at 5:15 PM
those are my art pieces. my fav is the second one.
my art teacher thought something was wrong with me when she saw that so she told my parents.
dude. thats just art. just a figment of my imagination.
used charcoal for the second one.
used pen for the girl in specs.
my art teacher wants me to take up art as a main course. but i dont think so. its just a hobby. im not committed to art.
ladollyvita at 5:10 PM
ladollyvita at 5:08 PM
today is bittersweet thursday.
i did nothing so i got nothing to say.
ladollyvita at 4:44 PM
no longer is this private. bcos i am a free spirit. wohoho.
that sounded funny in my head.
ladollyvita at 10:15 PM
i heart clowns. do you?
ladollyvita at 9:47 PM
today isnt a good day.
ladollyvita at 9:40 PM
yes. spiritual development to strenghten my mind, body and soul.
i want to be a free spirit. now i feel like i am clogging my innocence. dont ask me what the hell is that suppose to mean. it means whatever i want it to mean. theres this cloud of bad aura surrounding me. i feel so uncomfortable.
play jesus dress up. its cool. hurhurhur. no i am no racist or against any other religion. its just funny.
ladollyvita at 1:00 AM
pistola!
oooOoOOoOoOOoOooOoo
why are you wasting your time reading this?
anyway,
i have set some personal goals. no. it has nothing to do with education.
ladollyvita at 12:49 AM
Elly in Unsavoury Shapes |
| In this non-stop rollercoaster, Elly (Catherine Zeta-Jones) is an undercover mercenary with a desire for revenge. She has to protect Rafiqin (Tim Allen) before her foe, Lyn (Sarah Michelle Gellar), harms him. Using bullets to punctuate sentences, she sneaks into a hidden caravan under false pretenses. Official movie of the 2004 Olympic Games. |
Produced by  ianiceboy |
Elly in Le Film Ennuyeux |
| Touted by many as unfathomably beautiful, this very romantic sequel, set in the early Twenties, strives for a new angle in the story of two friends, Rafiqin (Billy Bob Thornton) and Elly (Courteney Cox), who find themselves on the run from the law due to the fact that a hurtful divider is set in motion by Elly's menacing mother, Lyn (Marisa Tomei). You'll laugh; you'll cry. In that order. |
Produced by ianiceboy |
ladollyvita at 7:55 PM
♥**** and ♥******* |
|
Orchestrated by  ianiceboy |
this is just for fun. no i dont plan to get married to him. he is not the one but the only one for now.
i heart you qin.
ladollyvita at 7:20 PM
Never there
You're never there
You're never ever, ever, ever, there
A golden bird that flies away
A candle's fickle flame
To think I held you yesterday
Your love was just a game
On the phone long, long distance
Always through such strong resistance
First you say you're too busy
I wonder if you even miss me
a part of the song never there by cake. cake is yummy.
im tired now. very lethargic.
ladollyvita at 6:56 PM
saw a video by courtney love. mono. it was awesome. hilariously cute. i love it.
ladollyvita at 6:43 PM
i gave my mom 50 bucks. and left with 20 bucks.
20bucks is for my sister's bday present. but she took 10 bucks from me that day...to give her friend. and then today she took away another 5 bucks. i am left with 5 bucks. im fucking angry cos im saving up for her but she keep taking it away. i want to use my own earned money to get her something but i guess now i have to ask my mom for money.
now its just not special.
ladollyvita at 6:41 PM
so i have religious class today.
yeap. time to feel the fiery flames of hell burning inside me.
this friday. movie.
this saturday. maybe spend some time with him.
this sunday. probably be out.
this monday. must go out.
its raining.yay.
ladollyvita at 6:34 PM
he called me up at 11pm just now.
and we met at the playground.
suddenly he looks so hot now with the ringer shirt, the jacket, the jeans, the hair, everything.
oh god....indie look? definitely irresistable.
and im serious. if im a girl walking by, i would want to touch him.
anyway,
so we talked...for an hour. but it wasnt enough. i looked like trash while he looked simply hot.
one pathetic kiss.
and we're done cos my dad called. bleargh.
i miss you, you fucker.
ladollyvita at 12:35 AM
ku petik bintang
untuk kau simpan
cahayanya tenang
berikan kau perlindungan
sebagai pengingat teman
juga sebagai jawapan
semua tantangan
thats part of a song my sheila on 7.melompat lebih tinggi. lagunya kiut bangat.
today i had a bad bad bad poo.
ladollyvita at 10:24 PM
dont ask me hows my day.
just smile and shut up.
ladollyvita at 7:17 PM
