Sunday, December 19, 2004

"Why can't I try on different lives, like dresses, to see which fits best and is most becoming?" - The Journals of Sylvia Plath

i spent the last few hours contemplating what to draw in my new fourty paged sketchbook. i have to submit twenty sketches by the end of the fourteenth week. if i start now, i should finish early and the burden will be lesser. but my hand is reluctant to draw, my mind is blank and my fingers are no longer making love with the pencil. have i forgotten how to draw?

my sister said, "Why is your face the layout, some people are so full of themselves." well that was not exactly what she said but the idea is there.

it is not that i am full of myself. i am vain to the very point that every average person is but my fugly face is there because this is my place for ranting and i dont see the point of putting a gorgeous model potraying perfection at its very best. she is not me and i hell can never be her, so why torture my self-esteem and put up her picture and everytime i look at her i feel so defeated?

but i simply cant deny the fact that people are "showing off" themselves or the things they owe, onto their blogs. in which, my sister herself, does.

hmm.

but i love going to photoblogs. critisizing and comparing is so much fun.

happy sunday shmunday to all.

ladollyvita at 3:59 PM