Sunday, June 20, 2004

nur dedicated a whole entry to me.in the process describing how ugly, narrow minded and typical i am.

what the fuck did that lover of mine see in you in the first fucking place.
hah.
no wonder he left you for me.

yes nur.im nothing compared to you.yes nur.you are the world to him.yes nur.i am just a useless, ugly, non-worthy, typical slut.yes nur.he left me for you.yes nur.i am straight.

i tried for awhile to be nice to you even after what happened.i tried.but one day the anger that has been building up burst like a fucking needle poking a mega huge hot air balloon.

maybe if you were there when i cant stop crying every half-an-hour everyday, you will know.maybe if you were there when i had trouble breathing, literally, you will know.maybe if you were there when i cant get out of bed, you will know.

you will know, that the pain that you and him gave me is just too deep.

yes nur.it comes and goes.

you made me twisted like that.

dont get me wrong.i am happy now being with an amazing someone.he is my precious wishing star.i can never be happier than this.

it just comes and goes.yes, sheer hatred.
ladollyvita at 9:15 PM