Saturday, June 26, 2004

yesterday was yet another awesome day out with the boy.

school was okay.i got a papercut on my hand due to carrying too many books.i struggled on the way home urgh.i was late again~.sorry beb.

i saw nur and his friends at marina square.yes, my head began spinning and my blood boiled like fuck.at first i thought it was rafiqin.but it was nur instead.i dont just do the whole talk but no action routine.when i say that when i see you outside, i will, approach you and i will curse you, trust me on that.

and so i did.cursing him in front of his girlfriends.anger was overpowering.

your height doesnt intimidate me.you trembled and looked down on the ground in silence as if i was a teacher scolding you.

forcing him to say it to my face what he wrote about me in his little blog.all i got from him was silence.

as i talked to him, i began to feel sad.images of the past flashed in my head like short movies.standing there in front of him, the pain i felt before came all over again as if only yesterday i found out rafiqin was cheating on me.

im sorry nur.i think that was enough verbal abuse and hatred from me already.no more.

my oh my...when is your turn qin?
im ready.
ladollyvita at 12:31 PM