Sunday, April 04, 2004

some people will work things out...and some just dont know how to change.

there are ways in feeling good, elly.
stop reading that blog. just stop fucking reading it you stupid girl.
forget about trying to get words out of your gay fuck.
just get on with your mundane life and just let it all pass you by.

breathe.

i guess he just enjoys denying the painful truth.
im still hurt. as much as before. days never pass me by without him in my head. night and day. the days arent so bad. but when the stars start to spread throughout the dark sky, thats when it all hurts the most. i try. everyday to smile and laugh this off. but it just happened. so its more difficult than me trying to choke on seeds. i try and i am still trying.

crying, like theres no tomorrow. so fucking emotional. what the fuck, elly. get a hold of yourself.
singing my life away with the beatles songs. watching spongebob was the only thing that made me laugh today. entertaining myself with my new handphone. counting breaths. oh well...move on, elly, you are boring all of us with your unnecessary everyday things.

why do you even bother to come here and read what i have to say, qin?
is it because you want to mock me and laugh. so god damn happy that you acted so fucking well.
well...i have to admit it...you got me good, boy, you got me good.

scrub...scrub...scrub...away memories of you and me. i dont need it anymore. forget about everything i say or write to you or for you...i dont mean it anymore. wash...wash...wash away pictures of you and me. scrub...scrub...scrub...away the places you touched. sweep...sweep...sweep away the broken bits of the world that i offered you. wipe...wipe..wipe...away these tears that just wont stop.

i know somebody and they called your name.
a million times and still you never came.
they go on loving you just the same, I know that somebody's trying.
i bet you never even know they do, but somebody's crying.

i am a girl afterall. so fucking emotional...its disgusting.


ladollyvita at 2:05 PM