Wednesday, February 25, 2004

to dinah who left a comment in my photos area...

firstly thank you for that nice compliment in which i highly doubt.
my insecurity simply derive from the fact that there is this number of people who have managed to stab through my self confidence. it is rare for me to feel insecure. and the recent problems that fell upon me caused me to break out. now im as low as the dirt and going out of the door just seems like a bad idea. im having a merry go round of bad lucks nowadays. it is effecting me. unfortunately.

sad isnt it. but it wont last forever. nothing does. this is yet just a phase? maybe. lets hope so.

my boyfriend is busy with work and all. im not trying to be an annoying girlfriend but...cant you see that we dont do much stuff together...and we dont talk as much as we used to cos it seems like theres nothing to say. and our kisses are just kisses. the touch of passion and longing for each other in our meetings and mushyness had disappeared as days pass us by. if we are coming to a split. i'll let you do that.

im not being paranoid. it is a realisation.

things fade out. i know. like you said, "one day i'll give you a letter that says we have to find something different and new"

no. dont write me a letter. dont tell me on the phone. tell that to my face and then i'll walk away.

i still do have feelings for you. i still do want to shower you with hugs and kisses and love and whatever. i still do want to run to your house when you are sick in bed. i still do want to be yours. but it all comes down to the fact that...

everything dies in the end.

ladollyvita at 2:31 PM